To leave without a word

Early this morning, i recieved a called... and i was told that a grand aunty of mine had passed away.
I was not affected by it to be very truthful. But the people around me were a different case...

The aunty was 59 years old... apparently she passed away at home in her sleep.
She was single and living alone.

A wake was held at the Singapore Casket... i never saw my grand-parents cry before... my grandmother was in tears when she saw the body of my aunty.
My grandfather, a man harden by war and bloodshed... a man who has stared at death many times was also in tears... when they started to cry, my heart soften and i felt that i wish i could share the pain with them...

My mother was very very affected by the whole 'thing'.

My mother is super and i really mean super scared of dying alone at home... I believe because... my father is always away at work in Batam and my sister is away in Australia studying... as for me, i'm eager to go to overseas and enjoy...
She is afraid that no one will know that she is dead... and my mother cried to be saying that she doesn't want to die alone... with no one around...

I hope if my mother were to pass-away, i hope she would go in her sleep with no pain or sufferings...

Attending the wake today, it just brought back memories of my late-friend...
When my buddies and i attended his wake, it really gave us opportunities to catch up with other classmates that we have not seen in ages...
While thinking of my friend's wake, it also brought back the pain of losing a friend...

My buddy aaron said that... the little red-paper that you get during a wake... with the 10 cent coin inside... He saw our late-friend's mom wrapping it and she was crying while doing it...

And i said to aaron that... No parent should ever have to bury their child...
I pray that my parents would never have to bury me... because i know that the pain of losing a child would be the worst feeling of their lives...
If ever i have to go, i pray that i go after my parents have gone...

I hope that my grand-aunty is in a better place now... and may she rest in peace...