And i don't know what to do

I feel that the obstacles of life has gotten to me these few weeks... with loads of projects due and exams are coming up in 3 weeks time...

I rented some DVDs today to watch at home, one of the shows that i rented was 'Rocky'. The show with Sylvester Stallone as a boxer. Its about his life of how he became a champion when he was a bum all his life...
One part of the movie shows him becoming very scared and tired of fighting... he told his girlfriend,

"all i wanna do i go the distance."

I also wish to go the distance... my shoulder is not getting any better. In fact, its getting worst and i cannot lift up my school bag with my right hand... when i strech my right arm out, there is this slight 'pop' sound... and I don't dare to tell most people as they know i take up boxing and it would mean i'm weak...

I miss boxing like crazy... standing in the ring... feeling a pure rush... knowing that for just 3 mins you are free... free to become who you wanna become...
I miss Alvin screaming at my ear to punch harder... to hear him encouraging me...

Know that the person you like a lot... like someone else already... haha... stupid me...
Feeling like pressure cooker, i'm ready to blow up... but the best part is that i cannot even explode... what difference is a handicapped man from me?
I feel the same... useless and hopeless... not having any thing to look forward to at the end of the week...
One injury like that took me out for 1 month already... that is like 12 training sessions already... before my injury.... i didn't train for 3 weeks because of my term tests... it would add up to about close to 2 months of not training...

My buddy "Dee Dee" in school asked me what i wanted for my birthday... If i really had a birthday wish... and if it would come true...
I would wish that my shoulder would recover immediately
If my shoulder's recovery could be bought at a price, i would gladly pay for it...

How could this happen to me!!! i have so much emotions running through me and i've got no exit outlet!!!

"Its time to face the truth... i'll never be with you"