My life and my love

I was watching a movie i rented from VideoEzy... Million Dollar Baby.

Speaks of this boxing trainer not willing to train women in boxing... as he believes that boxing is for the men only. But some how this woman is different and with very strong perserverence, she manage to convince him to train her.
He asked her why she even took up boxing... and she said that when she boxed, she felt free...

That is exactly how i feel when i box.

Coming back to the show, she won several matches... she was moved up in weight-class to wealtherweight... there she had a shot at the title belt... but that belt cost her everything...
her rival was a dirty fighter that punched her and Knock her Out and her neck hit a stool...
She couldn't box anymore and her spinal cord were so badly damage, she was bedridden...
She didn't wanna live anymore...

One thing that she said which i agree was , "while i'm here (bedridden), i canno hear them chanting my name anymore"

That phrase touched me big time... as i had a glimsp of what it feels like...

In the ring... boxing... you know that people are looking at you and you're scared. But at the same time you know that the people looking at you are staring at you in awe... For that 3 mins, you free...

Damn... i fucking miss boxing...
All my life i searched for heaven... my heart it longs for so much more... i found it in you...